Itni Coolness What To Do!

This thing where we pretend to keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, its usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose all those we wanna remain close to. Once we have chosen, we tend to stick close by. But the people that are with you at the end of the day, those are worth keeping. 

Because people who matter, they just matter. End of discussion.

The thing is Semester 1 is over. And i'm jobless. And all i'm doing is sitting at home and watching Grey's Anatomy back to back. Though i try to fit in Gossip Girl in this busy schedule but Grey's takes the front seat. And right now i'm actually feeling weird that i haven't watched even a single Grey's episode today. Awesome no. :P

So what did i actually learn in Semester 1? How cool is it to see your friends getting drunk every single day. How awesomelacious it is to just bunk classes and roam around in your car, whole fucking day. How nice it is to not study at all for the mid-sems and be dependent on the girl sitting next to you. How astounding it is to bitch about people in your department with a guy. And yeah that splendid feeling that you get when you are taking your final Semesters exam and answering each and every question from your phone without a care in the world. Priceless.

[Trust me all this never happened before i joined the University]

So all in all i think 3 months weren't that bad. I have a month's break. Well almost. And its just the 3rd holiday and i'm shit bored! I miss my University *this* much. :'(

I know nobody is wondering, but still i would like to mention, i don't have any internship! I'm paying for the lazy me now. I should be working my ass out right now, instead i'm sitting here and smiling. Smiling with the world and at the world. Because itni coolness jo hai! :D

Time for me to go and do what i do the best. Put the earphones and watch Grey's Anatomy. McDreamy is just *MegaDrool* :D

P.S. The pictures i use, the title, and the text that you read are usually not related. So don't even bother thinking what has the picture got to do with the first paragraph and what has the first paragraph got to do with the whole text and the title. I don't get it myself. Hence, there is a very prominent break between every para. But i think you are intelligent enough. :)

Its Cold. And everything is Blue.

When life throws lemons, i just keep them aside and stare at them. Why? Because i don't know what to do with them. And no, i don't know how to make lemonade out of them either. 

I don't think you have to wait for someone to fly underneath you and save your life. You just have to save yourself. 

I always knew it was too good to be true. I was prepared. But somehow it doesn't make sense now. And please tell me why is that when i'm *trying* to deal with my so called problems, the world throws their problems at me! Who will deal with mine haan?!


Everything happens for a reason! Yeah right! Why fucking not! 


I should really learn from my mistakes. Its high time. I'm not a teenager anymore. I wish i was though. But that's not the point. I know it is very easy for me to be indifferent right now. But you wont get affected by it, only i will. I'm one insanely stupid person to go through all of it again. AGAIN! 


Stupid brain doesn't even make sense now. I need a brain transplant i think. And yeah back transplant too (If theres any such thing as a back transplant). People think i'm quiet. Even my friends think i'm quiet. But what they really don't know is that i'm planning their murder inside this damaged brain of mine. I'm trying to figure out ways to slaughter them. Poor them. They think i'm all nice and oh so quiet. I'm destructive like that.


I contradict my self *this* much. On one hand i don't care about these humans around me, and the very next nano second i crib about how attached i get. Stupid no! 


And yes in order to feel better, i need to work. I want an internship. In a bloody magazine. I want cool people around me. I will feel cool that way. The coolness factor is just missing right now. Because i have been too busy thinking about random nonsense stuff. 


I feel Blue. :D

(De)sensitize.

I feel like everything's muted,

I hang on to life by a thread.

My world is shattering around me

I scream inside my head

I try to transfer these words, these feelings, this life

to the outside world around me,

but I locked it all up too tight.

My world is shattering around me,

I hang on by a thread.

And all I can do is sit alone,

in the darkness inside my head.

Older, Yes. Wiser, No.

You know what! I'm 21 now. HeeeeHaaaa :]

So birthday was unexpectedly amazing! No kidding. Though there was no surprise as such but i think friends did everything they could to make it special and better than the 20th. And obviously i would like to thank H (my best friends) and R. Obviously they are awesome shawesome :]

One whole cake smudged on my face is not a small thing okay. And everybody will pay for it. I think my hair still smells of cake. Hehe :P

Yes yes i'm happy. No more pissed off mood. Yayyy to that. 

It might sound weird but i actually sometimes forget my age. Like last week i was actually asking myself, 'so is it the 20th or 21st year' !! Strange isn't it?! But its okay, as everybody knows i'm weird like that. 

Okay so i'm a year older, but i don't think i act like a 21 year old. Because they are suppose to be mature and intelligent. I'm not even M of mature and I of intelligent. 

But i should start making mature decisions if nothing else. I should stop getting attached to people. Wont do any good no. They don't understand how you feel. And people are stupid, the only person who is awesome is me. :P

Oh yes i wanted to get my hair colored red this time for my birthday. Don't run your imagination wild now, just one streak. It would have looked so uber-cool! And yeah i wanted a piercing too! So much i wanted to do before the 21st and oh soo lazy me! Sigh.

Happy 21st to me! :D


I almost forgot, a biggg thank you to all of my friends for making it by far the best Birthday as long as i can remember! And yes family deserves a little credit too! Love you all much! 
Hugs and kisses! :D

Whattay (E)ventful Day !!

You think its my fault i feel like shit right now? That i want to sit in a corner and cry my eyes out for no reason at all? That i really want somebody to slap me and say, "what is wrong with you, get a life and stop irritating people around you who care for you so much!"

Birthday in another 4 hours. Guess what i'm not excited. I don't even want my birthday right now. Because for me birthdays are suppose to be fun. Weeks before i start counting days like a mad man. This time its nothing. And somehow i don't like it. There's no reason for me to be this upset. (Apart from the fact that i have nothing to wear, thats another story altogether)

I'm *this* close in shutting myself up somewhere. 

And i know this will piss some people off. Because all they want is my happiness. I want my happiness too (i'm selfish like that), but i cant seem to find my happiness. People don't need a reason to be happy, but right now i want a very solid reason. And no, birthday in 4 hours is not that solid reason for me these days. 

Today even writing is not helping. I can still cry. Raise your voice at me right now and i *will* start crying for sure. 

This mood is making me so irritated. I think i need some help. Some medical help maybe. :|

I knew the weekend would be pathetic. But this pathetic! Never expected. I wish tomorrow is a better day. Not for me, but for the people around me. I don't care about me right now, but the people who really care for me. They don't deserve this. Because they do want me to be happy! 

I still feel like shit!

Why Do I Have A Tiny Brain?

The first thing we learn is Communication. But the funny thing is, as we grow up, learn our words and really start talking, the harder it becomes to know what to ask for or what we really want. 

You know how clueless i am right now? *This* much. :P

It's gonna be one long weekend. I don't know if that's a good thing or not. I just feel it will be long. I'm in depressed sort of mood these days. Too much thinking happening na. My li'l brain is overworked right now, hence the depressed mood. 

When i was a kid, i wanted to be a pilot. I like men in uniform. So i thought if i become a pilot, i'll at least find a decent man. But then i wasn't aware of the fact you need to study science to become a pilot. I hate science. *This* much. So i dropped the idea. And with that my dream of finding a decent man faded away too. :[

I think i have chosen the wrong field. Don't you think so? I certainly do. Everyday. Why do i want to be a journalist. Let me think .. I want to be a journalist because :-

a) It sounds awesome. "I'm a journalism student/ journalist."

b) It is glamorous. If i happen to work for a magazine that is.

c) I get to attend shit load of parties. Again provided i'm in some fashion magazine or doing fashion PR.

d) I can dress casually. Unlike those MBA people. Boring their life is i think. 

e) My dad wants to see a press sticker on my car. Hehe. It'll make him proud i think. 

So as you can see i have listed 5 reasons (can't think of anymore right now). Are they good enough? Did you notice no where i have mentioned that i can write! Because i cannot! I sure think so. I should have become a model only. I have a good height, if i exercise i can loose that extra inch or two. I should have been a model only. Instant fame. Shit. Its too late now. I'm almost 21 and in modelling industry some girls retire when they are 21. No kidding. 

Ah well its too late now. The college fees has already been paid. I don't like wasting my dad's money. Such a nice kid i am no. :P

And for your kind information, whoever said what you don't know can never hurt you was a complete moron! 

Too tired now. And i should stop rambling. I make no sense. :/

And yes only two days for my birthday. And it's raining outside. :D

Much Love.

Miss.

I wish you were right here by my side to comfort me right now. 

 It is not suppose to be this difficult, but it is. I should get use to it, but i'm not. I wish you were here, but you are not. 

I miss you more with each passing day. My soul longs more each  year. I want to hear your soft, comforting voice, feel your warm embrace, sense your loving energy, and see your pretty face. I just want you to be here with me and see what i have become. 

I miss you, Mom. 

Sometimes i wish i could end it all. So that maybe somewhere we can meet. But life can never be that simple. I still remember that day more than anything. I was suppose to be with her. But its like she already knew what was about to happen and asked me to stay back. I threw so many tantrums but she dint listen. And she just said 'Go study!' It was a very very long time ago, still i remember that day. 

Why can't i turn back time? Why is life so unfair? Why did you leave me like this?

But i will always love you. 

Don't hide behind that stupid mask.

"Hospitality is not what it seems. Its a cold, clever, conniving fiend.

Sugary and sweet, everyone's a best friend.

Bitter and harsh, the facade is a pretense."

You think you looking all pretty wearing that stupid mask. I don't think so. Looojjer!

And that stupid mask is a major turn off. When i say major, i mean i don't think i would even like to puke on your not-so-pretty face too! Yes its that bad.

People should really need to know when to shut up. I think there should be some kind of special classes or something for juvenile asses like them somewhere so that they are taught how to behave in public with grown ups around.

 And yes i am major time pissed off right now. I don't know why but i am. [Yes i'm lil weird like that.] I get all pissed off when people start acting so fake around me. Arre bhai why do you wanna act two faced all the fucking time !! It is not as cool as you think it is. Get it Looojerss! :/

Get a life! And quit ruining mine with all that buttery attitude. [Makhan baazi re :P ]

Oh btw Birthday week! Birthday means so much shopping. And it has already started. So yayyy. Did i mention that i have stupid-good-for-nothing friends? I think i have. Why am i saying this, because they can't even throw a surprise party for me. Thats so rude of them. This time i have even specified i wont celebrate, which is like an indication saying "arre ab toh ek surprise party dedo". But no they are *this* useless. But whatever, i like my birthdays. Theres nothing great about this day, but still i like it. 
Because i get to blow all the candles and make a wish! :D

Yes You.

I sometimes feel i live in my own magical world.


How i want time to stop here. Yes this is where i want the clock to stop ticking. Or maybe not. How can time stop. Too much mush i'm reading these days. Not good. But they are so interesting. So unreal. And so stupid. Okay i have given so many reasons myself why should i stop reading these novels. But then i know i wont. 

"You are you. And nothing can be more true."
This line is stuck in my head ever since. And somehow it makes a lot of sense. In some weird way of course. I like to believe that whoever you are is real. You know when you get the feeling 'is this really happening', something like that is happening with me right now. This obviously is a very peachy feeling. But me being the negative me, knows this will end. (I think i have mentioned this before) Because i can't wake up with a smile everyday. Because what you want, you never get. Because with time everything changes. Because no matter what you think life is unfair sometimes. 


But you know what, it doesn't matter! I actually don't care. For now i just wanna enjoy my magical world. Where everything is just perfect. 


But why am i smiling so much?? Batao batao why?? :P


So in other news, I think yesterday was by far the most embarrassing day of my life. It tops the bloody list! It was my presentation and i went blank. Totally speechless. I was just standing there like a zombie. I had a feeling something like this can happen, but that feeling was just a passing thought. And again not fair. :(


And for all of you who i meet everyday, please stop acting so fake. With all of you around me, i have started feeling so fake myself. This is my earnest request. Thank you. And i love you all. NOT! 

Should I or Shouldn't I ??

I don't want to be scared. 

Anymore.

So many things going on in my not-so-interesting life that its making me all scared. Theres this thing inside me which is making me sick. Its getting harder and harder for me to trust people. I want to, but something inside me is telling me don't! What it is it with me that as soon as someone starts caring about me, i feel like running away and shutting myself up!

I really want to shut myself in a room somewhere so that i don't have to talk to anyone. Because i'm scared. I'm scared people will come too close and will leave me. Because that's how things have always been. People come close, pretend they care, and bam, they just leave. Just like that. And this time if something like this happens, i *will* lose trust. In everything. 

And yeah the other day this friend of mine got drunk and fought with someone just for me. It sounds sweet, but it was not at that time. I almost slapped him. People usually say when someone is drunk, he/she says the truth. Is it true? Because he said some really nice things and i felt so special and cared for. And this is one of the many things that is making me scared. I don't want people to care for me so much. It sounds lame but i really don't want that. 

And if people wont leave me, i know i will one day. I'm not all that nice you know. Its always easier to make the first move when it comes to leaving. And if that makes me a loner, then so be it. You think i care!

I sometimes feel like i write like a love-struck teen. :P

But that is the problem, i'm not love-struck. Have never been one i think. 

I was suppose to study.

Yes i'm *this* awesome! :D

I have 3 bloody exams is one day and still i'm here. Anything to avoid studying no. :) [I'm cool like this.] 

You know i will regret not studying in just one more day! Just one day and i'll be all ready to shoot myself. But then i don't care. I have never cared for marks. I never came first or for that matter was never in top 10 students of my class. Not even when i was in 2nd and there were hardly 25 children in my class. Yes don't make that face now. Not everyone is suppose to be intelligent! I don't care if i pass or fail a single exam, as long as i'm being promoted to the next class or next year i'm happy.

Even when i start working i don't think i'll ever wanna be "the employee of the month". I'l be happy if i finish my work on time. The only reason i don't want this is because then people have too much expectations from you and a lot of jealousy happens. And frankly i don't like expectations. And i don't like meeting them too. Too much burden on my tiny brain will happen and its not good for health no :P 

And i just sound so non career oriented. Not good. 

Naseeb .. That's what they call it.

"You come

You follow

I follow back

I call you a stalker from your bio, and you call me a stalker for no reason at all

I get back at you

You get back at me

Some guy gets jealous

I ask your name

I find your blog

I steal your email id

I get on Gtalk

I yap, you yap

We yap

Fun happens

Random crap happens

Blog posts happen

You think

I think

We both think

Now you say you quit

I say don't

You say no i will

I say you will not

I win, you lose

Finish !!"

This is what *this* person said. And i think this is the sweetest thing anybody has said to me to make me feel better. *this* person wishes to remain anonymous. And i think *this* person is awesome shawesome :D :D 

The Stranger In My Dream.

I take my dreams very seriously. And here i'm not referring to those 'what i wanna be when i grow up' dreams. I'm talking about the dreams when you have while you are sleeping. Its funny that people have such weird dreams which has nothing to do their real life. They usually forget the next morning or maybe just laugh over it, but i take my dreams very seriously. I try and analyze it. Its such a waste of time but then i have nothing better to do also.

Few days back (make that weeks now because this post is pending ever since) i had one of these 'weird' dreams. And *he* was in it. Okay rest i don't remember what it was all about. The only thing i remember is it was a happy dream. No sci-fi was there in the dream at least. It felt real. He felt real. And i woke up to the biggest smile on my face the next morning. 

It was one of those dreams which i wanted it to come true. But as they say 'Dreams never come true'

And yeah i was *this* close to deleting this entry. But then it would have been such a waste na. And you who is reading this, yes i'm talking to you, welcome to my world of Randomness! I hope you like my world. And thank you for being a part of it. See i'm being nice here. That *sometime* is right now. :D 

P.S. I couldn't find a suitable picture again. Next time i'm pakka copy pasting from somebody's Flickr account. :P

Super-awesome.

I sometimes wonder if one day if i go missing, will anyone even notice? Will they look for me or just move on with their super-awesome-life? 

(I think i'm just insecure and i'm cool like that)

So in other news, I'm not liking college after the so-called 10 days break. Deadlines everywhere. And the people i use to call friends are well turning into big time bitches. But then i'm glad, i at least have one good friend (in college) with whom i can share everything and bitch about people. He's super awesome. I never knew bitching with a guy will be this awesome! 

But then i feel bad because i have always had so many friends (I still do, but they are not in my college) and i was surrounded by people all the time. I don't mean to brag but we were always the coolest group on campus. :P

But then times change and well your luck gets transfered to somebody else. I wish my luck got transfered to a well deserved person. Because there was a time when i use to consider myself very very lucky. Not kidding. 

Oh i almost forgot to mention i was in Delhi last week. And i had the time of my life! Fuck! I cant believe i ate so much and didn't shop at all. Thats like super strange because i live to shop! Or shop to live (whichever statement is correct). Delhi is my happy place. And it will always be like that, even if i turn 50. But wait if i turn 50 and go to Delhi i want Tanya to be there too, otherwise it wont be that happy of a place (btw tanya is my super-awesome cousin and me loves her so fucking much). :D

I just realized that i have used the word 'super-awesome' thrice already. But then the word 'super-awesome' is super-awesome na. Okay now i have lost count of how many times i have used this word. 

Oh i have an idea! I want the title of this post to be super-awesome. Haha. It was suppose to be "Give My Luck Back. Plizz" But now look look what it is! 

I was suppose to study! 3 exams in one day is not a joke. Ok bye now. 

P.S. I wanted to post a picture but couldn't find anything suitable. Can i copy paste from somebody's flicker account? Haha. 

And I Quit.

With just one click, I Quit.

I'm not trying to run away from anything. I just want to stay away from the drama. I don't like the patient me. Impatient is what i am and that's what i do the best. 

You are the only reason why i quit. But unfortunately, you'll never know. And i will never tell you, because it wont matter to you. 

Dear World, go Screw Yourself. Thank you.

I wish I had someone who could listen to me. 
Someone who understood me.
Someone who loved me for who I am. 
I wish I had Someone ...


My mind is super fucked right now. It can burst any moment. I can burst any moment. 
I dont understand why i let anyone affect me so much! And in the end it all comes down to this word. *affect* Ufff. I'm so tired of this word now. (This word will definitely haunt me one day.) Why can't i be some heartless bitch who doesn't give a damn about anyone. I have realized it's not that hard to be flinty. You just have to be oblivious to the other persons feelings and say whatever you want, and yeah you don't have to think twice before saying anything. Easy isn't it!
Grrrrrrrrrrr ( x infinity)


But i have realized one thing that i shouldn't take out my anger on twitter or for that matter here. I only write when i am fucked up in the head. It's not fair. And i'm sure most of my followers on twitter think that i'm some insane tempestuous woman. Which is not true. I'm mostly happy. Even if i'm alone i'm happy. Like today for example, i was so so so happy in the afternoon. I was happy high. And that is how i am. I am not fake like some people (thank God for that). I'm not all that muaah muaah types also. I'm just me (who is by the way not angry and pissed off all the time). So i should make it a point to write when i'm happy too. And i think i should tweet more often when i'm happy and disappear for a while when i'm pissed. Sounds like a plan to me :D


Since my mind is little less fucked right now, i wanna ask where is my Special Someone (shouting out loud) !!??!! And i'l keep on repeating this question till i find a suitable answer or for that matter a suitable someone :P
Suck on that Bitch! 

Nothingness which turned into Some-thingness.

Today started like any other day. It started with me driving like a maniac in the morning because i was soo late for the morning lecture which never happened. Bleh, isn't it! And then it was a friends birthday. Still the day was normal. No wait, it turned into a mahaepic day! I don't think i have laughed so hard for no reason at all ever! I can't explain what all happened but it was a new experience. An experience which i cannot experience again. An experience which is too addictive, and i don't like getting addicted to things.
Speaking of addictions, i never really got the whole idea of getting addicted to things, especially "that thing". I mean why is that a person is so weak from inside when he decides to quit something. And how do you really know if you are addicted or not. I often find myself wondering what am i addicted to! Maybe i should work on this from now on. "Find out what am i addicted to"
Oh wait, i think i know my addiction. Sleep! Oh yes, i can sleep day in and day out. I know it sounds like a cliche but sleep gives me peace of mind. And i love wasting my time, so what better way than to sleep! I do have people around me who think that i sleep way too much, and that they sometimes feel like slapping me for it. Wtf! Slapping me for sleeping so much! Shammers they are. And guess what i can even sleep with my eyes open. Now slap me for that too! Bleh. 
And I think i'm sleepy again. :D

Leave Me Alone! ... Or Maybe Not!

I like staying alone! When i'm alone i don't have to pretend being happy when i'm actually not. Its much more fun this way. But this obviously doesn't mean that i'm a loner. I'm so not! But sometimes i wish i could just sit in a corner and stare at people without them noticing me. I like judging people, whereas i obviously hate when somebody judges me. I hate being all flamboyant when it comes to socializing. Why can't i ignore everyone around me and just talk to people i really care about or for that matter like. Its actually absurd that when you enter a party or for that matter even your own class, you have to go and meet everyone and be all goody-goody. It seems so phony and unreal. I actually detest people who are all over friendly and amicable. Pretentious asses! 
But then who wants to be alone in this world, isn't it! If my friends leave me alone for 10 mins, i often find myself feeling sad and lonely. And also i don't like when they ignore me (which they obviously don't). I sometimes wish i had more friends and i was invited to more parties. I don't mind the attention you see. :P So basically what i want is Attention, even if i'm getting that from two-three people. No wait, what i really want more than this is to be Center of Somebody's World! Yesss i want that! But unfortunately i don't have that special someone in my life :( Maybe that's why i like being left alone once in a while, so that i could think what it would feel like to be somebody's special someone! *sigh*
Not too much to ask, isn't it! 

.....

I wont become good.
I wont become nice.
I'll be bad, just for him.

Things I Hate.

... I Hate my Life.


I hate the fact i get attached to people very easily. And then i can't let go. I hate how everything they do, good or bad, related to me or not, affects me. I hate when i don't have any control over my emotions, and because of it i fuck up my life pretty bad. 


I hate my mood swings. There's nothing worse than having mood swings 24/7. PMS-ing or not, my mood swings are there with me. One time i'm super excited and smiling for no reason, and the next moment i'm super sad and sulking for no reason. 


I hate the fact that everyone around me is so fucking talented. And i don't even know what i'm good at. Bleh. I cant even write and here i'm doing journalism! 


I hate the fact i have to live in Chandigarh for another 2 years. I wanted to travel. A lot. But i'm stuck here. 


And all of this is making me so sick inside. I have no control. It is making me claustrophobic, and i can't breathe. Here goes another mood swing. Bleh. 


Guess what I Hate You too. 

Emptiness.

He was what every girl yearned for. And he knew it very well. He had those enticing looks, that would leave you wanting for more. And he knew it very well. He was a charmer.  And he knew it very well. But he was definitely not a keeper. He was empty inside.


And he left me numb. Life-less.

Time (Mis)Management.

You wont believe it but i am actually trying to write in my blog from the past 2 weeks. Lame, isn't it! Finally i am busy again. Uni has started and fortunately or unfortunately i am actually enjoying it (but a lil disappointed with my batch, read boys in my class). Its 9-5, sounds like a job or something but it keeps me busy and that's what i want. I love the course. I have my own Dept. to cover :D :D And and and we are suppose to make a documentary and i am the Editor (editor memsaab). It is so awesome! 


So about the title of this post, well i have no freaking idea why i named it this. It doesn't even go with what i am saying. But I came up with this title when i was sitting in some boring lecture, obviously i wouldn't wanna waste it (cuz it sounds cool). 
See m making no sense! 


Time management refers to a range of skills, tools, and techniques used to manage time when accomplishing specific task projects and goals. 
(There you go! At least now u wont feel u wasted your time reading this post) 

The Best 6 months of my Life

Best 6 months of my life. Spent with my dog - Tess

I haven't seen anyone more beautiful.

I love you. And i miss you more than anything in this world. 

Her first day in our lives. She changed us. She changed me.

Unlike most dogs, she never freaked out when we showed her the mirror.

Waiting for me to come inside so that she could sleep. 

"Give me that biscuit already"

"M so tired"

"I dint eat your homework. Dont scold me please. Ok maybe i did, but i am the cutest puppy ever."

"I love my burger"


You'll be Missed Always ...

Not my fault I was sleeping!

Today, when i was in my fairy dreamland something started vibrating, don't run your imagination wild, it was just my phone. I received a text from dear dear friend. So with sleep filled eyes i started reading it. It goes something like this "Im stupid and selfish, go figure!". Obviously like a good friend i asked what happened? And though there was no need to text her again (cuz i was sleeping) i still did (since m such a good friend) And that very moment i screwed my friendship. I messaged saying "dont tell me its about that stupid party at some random stupid guy's place that u weren't able to attend". (the guy is her latest crush) Harsh isn't it? And she never bothered replying. Mind you i am still waiting for the reply. But its not my fault either, shes been cribbing about that party ever since and I couldn't take it anymore. Humph! And on top of it i was sleeping! 


Moral of the story dont text me when i am sleeping, u might regret it. Or should i say i might regret it later. :O

You and Me

All dreams were shattered
Which always mattered

The look in your eye
That meant u were forever mine

Then why did u leave?
Why did u made me weep?

Not once did u think that u were doing the wrong thing?
Maybe once u could have thought of me as more than a fling

My world was tearing apart
But who can i blame, because everyone did their own li'l part

Maybe it was never about We
It was always about You and Me
And that's how it was meant to be.

Here I come again.

So I just realized its been way too long since i made an entry in my blog. In fact i even forgot i have a blog. Strange, isn't it?! :O So whats new with me! Well, hmmmmm... Just that i am a journalism student now. Wait, dont u think its awesome! I like the sound of it and i can say it all day. I am a Journalism Student. Lalal la la la.. Ok enough of me bragging about that.
And now I have made a promise to myself that i will be more regular. I'll try and write everyday. Ok not everyday, that's too much to ask.