Itni Coolness What To Do!

This thing where we pretend to keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, its usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose all those we wanna remain close to. Once we have chosen, we tend to stick close by. But the people that are with you at the end of the day, those are worth keeping. 

Because people who matter, they just matter. End of discussion.

The thing is Semester 1 is over. And i'm jobless. And all i'm doing is sitting at home and watching Grey's Anatomy back to back. Though i try to fit in Gossip Girl in this busy schedule but Grey's takes the front seat. And right now i'm actually feeling weird that i haven't watched even a single Grey's episode today. Awesome no. :P

So what did i actually learn in Semester 1? How cool is it to see your friends getting drunk every single day. How awesomelacious it is to just bunk classes and roam around in your car, whole fucking day. How nice it is to not study at all for the mid-sems and be dependent on the girl sitting next to you. How astounding it is to bitch about people in your department with a guy. And yeah that splendid feeling that you get when you are taking your final Semesters exam and answering each and every question from your phone without a care in the world. Priceless.

[Trust me all this never happened before i joined the University]

So all in all i think 3 months weren't that bad. I have a month's break. Well almost. And its just the 3rd holiday and i'm shit bored! I miss my University *this* much. :'(

I know nobody is wondering, but still i would like to mention, i don't have any internship! I'm paying for the lazy me now. I should be working my ass out right now, instead i'm sitting here and smiling. Smiling with the world and at the world. Because itni coolness jo hai! :D

Time for me to go and do what i do the best. Put the earphones and watch Grey's Anatomy. McDreamy is just *MegaDrool* :D

P.S. The pictures i use, the title, and the text that you read are usually not related. So don't even bother thinking what has the picture got to do with the first paragraph and what has the first paragraph got to do with the whole text and the title. I don't get it myself. Hence, there is a very prominent break between every para. But i think you are intelligent enough. :)

Its Cold. And everything is Blue.

When life throws lemons, i just keep them aside and stare at them. Why? Because i don't know what to do with them. And no, i don't know how to make lemonade out of them either. 

I don't think you have to wait for someone to fly underneath you and save your life. You just have to save yourself. 

I always knew it was too good to be true. I was prepared. But somehow it doesn't make sense now. And please tell me why is that when i'm *trying* to deal with my so called problems, the world throws their problems at me! Who will deal with mine haan?!


Everything happens for a reason! Yeah right! Why fucking not! 


I should really learn from my mistakes. Its high time. I'm not a teenager anymore. I wish i was though. But that's not the point. I know it is very easy for me to be indifferent right now. But you wont get affected by it, only i will. I'm one insanely stupid person to go through all of it again. AGAIN! 


Stupid brain doesn't even make sense now. I need a brain transplant i think. And yeah back transplant too (If theres any such thing as a back transplant). People think i'm quiet. Even my friends think i'm quiet. But what they really don't know is that i'm planning their murder inside this damaged brain of mine. I'm trying to figure out ways to slaughter them. Poor them. They think i'm all nice and oh so quiet. I'm destructive like that.


I contradict my self *this* much. On one hand i don't care about these humans around me, and the very next nano second i crib about how attached i get. Stupid no! 


And yes in order to feel better, i need to work. I want an internship. In a bloody magazine. I want cool people around me. I will feel cool that way. The coolness factor is just missing right now. Because i have been too busy thinking about random nonsense stuff. 


I feel Blue. :D

(De)sensitize.

I feel like everything's muted,

I hang on to life by a thread.

My world is shattering around me

I scream inside my head

I try to transfer these words, these feelings, this life

to the outside world around me,

but I locked it all up too tight.

My world is shattering around me,

I hang on by a thread.

And all I can do is sit alone,

in the darkness inside my head.